current song: Foo Fighters
I feel like I am moving a million miles and hour, but still am not getting anything done. My work load has doubled and I don't even know where to begin.
The weekend was eventful. Both good and bad.
I had a realization of epic proportions last night. I always thought of the idea of being in a committed relationship as meaning that you are only with one person, monogamous. But really when you think about it, it is so much more isn't it? Being committed means sticking it out through good and bad. Being willing to work out anything that comes your way. Not walking out regardless of circumstances.
When I think about why I have been drawn to the concept of marriage, maybe what I was looking for was truly commitment. I mean, I don't think I have ever really experienced true commitment with anyone...not even my family. I think that is what I have wanted all along. Assurance and partnership, which while they can be part of a marriage, are so much more than that.
And with that understanding I have raised the bar of expectations for myself and anyone who chooses to step into the arena of forever with this lady.
I wish I would have figured this out earlier.